It's Official...

I give up. That's it. I'm a quitter. I try and try and try. My children are so horribly behaved, I don't know what to do with them. I wish I could take a vacation and not come back until they are grown. My life feels like it's falling apart. I'm tired of the "Oh, you just have to have a good attitude about it" speech. To heck with that. Live a day in my shoes and then you can talk to me about attitude. Yes, I know it could be worse. Yes, I know there are people around the world that would trade positions with me. But you know what, I don't have the energy or support for that to affect me. I just don't. I am lucky that I just push through each day. I know in my head that this won't last forever, atleast I'm hoping to God that it doesn't, but that doesn't change how I feel right now. So call me what you will, think of me what you will, but that's my stance.

Bring out the black balloons :)

Well, today is my 30th bday. Ugh. I've been dreading this bday for a while. Let's just hope that year 30 blows year 29 out of the water!!! I could use some heaven sent blessings :)

Last night we went to Longhorns for dinner. Well, attempted dinner. They burnt everyone's (with dad being the exception) dinner...not just a little overcooked, we're talking charcoal BLACK. It was bad. This morning I met my wonderful friend Haley, who got me a massage certificate and a box of Spark!!! Yay!! She's a great friend. This evening mom, Josie, Lachlan and I are going shopping. We have pics scheduled with the lovely Nichol Engle on Friday. I'm praying we find what I want. I also need to visit Aveda. Til next time :)

You are greatly missed my sweet boy...

My precious Harley passed away on Sunday morning. This has been one of the hardest things ever. He has been a part of our family since August 1st 1998. He was loved, cherished, doted on.... He was my only son. He began having seizures a few months ago, I knew this time would come but I couldn't bring myself to think too much on it. Brian called me while I was at work to tell me that he had passed. I'm going to miss his little head tilt when I talked to him, his toenails tapping on the floor, the way he would get the hair bands out of my hair, his begging for spaghetti...and a million other little things. He may be gone but he will never be forgotten.

June 18th, 1998~October 11, 2009

I love you Harley

Peace...Be Still

Most of us are familiar with the event of Matthew Chapter 8. The disciples are out at sea when a storm comes upon them. Jesus is in the boat sleeping. Things look bad...Jesus still sleeps. The disciples panic....Jesus still sleeps. But when things look as if they are going to break He awakes. With a simple command the waves die down, the wind stops blowing, and calm abounds.

Sounds like my life. Right now I'm in the middle of the raging storm and I'm panicing. I feel like Jesus is asleep. I know that He is capable of turning the situation around. I'm trying my best to wait on His timing. It's hard. Almost impossible feeling. I can't help but wonder, what is God using this storm to teach me??? Honestly, I don't know. I need to stop worrying about all the worldly junk around me and concentrate on Him.

Whatever happens, despite how I feel....I know that Jesus is in my boat. I'm just waiting for that simple command that He will give over my problems, Peace...Be Still.

A Vacation from my vacation, Please.

So....we're back in one piece from our "trip" to Pigeon Forge. That's about the best thing I can say about it though. The girls just aren't old enough for over night trips. I think we'll stay with day trips for a few more years. We got there on Saturday morning around 8. Brian is one of those horrid morning people. This got the girls off to a bad start, they, like me, are night owls. We like the nightlife baby! Mornings are for snoozing. Anyway. They whined, cried, grabbed at stuff they shouldn't, yelled...typical toddler/preschooler behavior. We ate then took them to a small amusement park geared towards little ones. They loved it, but seeing as the rides cost almost 3 bucks per child per ride, yeah, they didn't get to ride too many.

We then went to our hotel and unpacked. The girls saw the pool and begged to get in. So we let them swim for a while. After swimming we attempted to eat dinner. We went to the Golden Corral, buffet style works well for the girls, atleast most of the time. Leora fell asleep on the way there and Lachlan was well on her way to sleepy town too. Waking them up to eat just ticked them off...We went back to the hotel. The girls then decided they wanted to go home. Lach kept saying "My bed misses me", and "I need my dogs"...Finally got to sleep sometime after midnight.

The next day we went to Gatlinburg. Awful. We came back to get ready to go to the Dixie Stampede which was the highlight of the trip. The girls did as well as could be expected. Atleast the food was great! After the DS we went back to the hotel to swim some more. They stayed in the pool til after 11. We met another couple with a little boy and the girls played with him. After the pool they decided it was time to eat. Brian took off around 11:30 to find pizza. They ate and began their "I wanna go home" stuff again. So guess what?? We packed up and headed on back home. I couldn't handle anymore...mom had been calling all day saying that Harley was on the brink of death, the girls were being heatherns....I just wanted a break. We got home around 3:30~after a lovely trip of Lachlan screaming at the top of her lungs. She actually lost her voice for a couple of days afterward. Yeah...that about covers it.

Bad timing

Brian has been bush~hogging Doyle's pasture for the past two days. He went back today to finish up, as he was working he came across a little bunny rabbit. So sweet. Brian was worried that it would get ran over by the tractor so he caught it and decided to bring it home for the girls to see. Not a bad idea over all....but he didn't get home until 9 pm. The girls should have been ready for bed but the bunny got them all excited and so here it is 11 pm and they just went to sleep. Oh well, learning experiences are valuable any time of the day :)

Celebrating 2 Years of Leora!

Tonight we had a small get together for Leora's birthday. We had a homemade cake, complete with the misspelled "Birthay" on it....Oh well, it didn't affect the taste. She got some clothes, a baby doll, a DVD/VCR player, and some $$!

Sweet Leora,

I'm so blessed to have had you in my life the past two years. I have loved watching you learn and grow. I can't wait to continue watching you become the amazing person I know you are. I love you so much! Happy Birthday!

Love,

Mommy

Seems like yesterday...

I was pacing around Union County Hospital trying to coax Leora Camille to make her grand appearance! Today she turned 2 years old! In some ways it feels like time has flown by and other days it feels like an eternity ago. She is a true blessing to our family. She made it complete, I'm so thankful that she is here with us, safe and happy.

Yeah...One of those.

Today has not been a great day. The girls woke up whiney, the house was a wreck, and the battery on my van died...I think. More like the alarm has gone haywire and shut the whole darn thing down. Once the van problem got solved we headed over to Nana's to eat salad and spaghetti. The girls did okay, Leora kept harassing the dogs and Lachlan pulled over Nana's plant and dirt went everywhere. Nana told the girls she would take them to the fair tonight. We'll see...they've already been to Lake Winnie and the Blue Ridge fair this summer.

I'm trying to talk myself into going to STEP tonight. I need to sweat. It's therapy. If I can only wake up!!! Red Line, Take me away!

Another Day...

Today was a busy day. Took the girls to Chic~Fil~A...Lachlan kept saying "Momma, can we go to Chicken Puh Lay???" It was too cute. My mom kept asking her "Where did you go Lachlan?" She'd get aggravated and say "Ah!! Chicken Puh Lay Nana!!!"

We also took some clothes over to Castaways for consignment. I hope they all sell. Really cute stuff that is too little for the girls but in great condition. Then we went to the gym, I taught KICK at 4:30...had a pretty good crowd of nine.

Now.... BEDTIME! I'm hoping the monkey's go down easily after the busy day we had.

Music feeds my soul....

I love music. I think in a past life I must have been a musician. But since I don't believe in past lives that is a moot point. I think back over my life and along with almost 99% of my memories some song is attached. Right now I'm seriously loving on Kings of Leon. Those guys are...I don't know an accurate word to describe them. Caleb Followill's voice gives me chills. Another guy I can't get quite enough of is Anthony Green. Old Saosin, Circa, or his solo stuff....~sigh~ Speaking of his solo stuff leads me to another amazing band Good Old War. Their harmonies are mind~blowing.

My girlies are visiting memaw & pepaw so I'm having some uninterupted computer time which is really nice. The floors are mopped and the dishwasher is doing it's thing....Now if the laundry would just do itself I'd be on cloud nine...Til Next time.

What am I thinking?

Exactly what do I need with a blog? I seriously doubt anyone would want to read about my day to day routine. On paper it would sound pretty bland, although at the end of the day it sure doesn't feel that way!

I guess I can use it for my own personal amusement...a nice little place to write down the clever things my girlies come up with before I forget! I used to have a LiveJournal, I still look at it from time to time and get a really good laugh at all the craziness that I'd get into. Well...we'll just see!